I hope you're different up there. I hope you're doing good.
I dreaded to look into your empty room.
Not used not having you to scold at me. Not used to everything now.
Looking at your cold body at the wake, makes my heart aches.
I hope you do look after yourself up there.
I hope everything will be fine very fast. <3

Sick, throat infection, fever from 40.2 degree, dropped to 39.3 then dropped to 38.3. Damn.
Flu, aching everywhere. Bad headache. And Chinese new year is getting near.

Helllloooooo! Nearly forgotten my blog.
School's great today. Hope everyday will be a great day! :D Ahahahaha!
Ok. Mdm Siti came back today. (:
And today's her birthday tooo! Thank you mutakine( don't know how to spell)
He bought the cake :D
I'm so shag. Had my milk tea hubby bought. And today got homework!
Gotta finish up my homework and go to bed! (:

Well, school's great. Friends around is great.
Fuck my mood swings. Stupid mosquito keep stinging me. And my leg itch like hell. Damn.
Moreover, people's booking sits in mrt. wth.
What a day. Had a bad headache. Nvm. Gotta go have some nap.
Later on, revising my work and start on a new chapter.
And btw, i'm fat! Lols!
Bye.

IT'S WEEKEND ALREADY!
Wooohoooo. So shiok. No need work, no need schooling. (:
I love this kind of life. Lols.
Ok. enough of nonsence . Gotta head down to town later on, to get hubby's shoes.
And to take a look at my bag later on.
Well, my blog's kinda dead now, also don't know how to make it alive. Lols.
gotta go bath now, if not, hubby's going to nag at me non stop! Lols! Update tonight, (:

From 10 pm i said that i wanted to sleep. Until now. Can't sleep. All thanks to Winston hoong.
I'm having class at 8am tomorrow. Luckily schools end at 12 pm. Will be heading down to tamp.
To collect my shoes. I'm not scheduled this week. So i'm super free this week. Lols.
I'm thinking of something. Fuck you. Lols. I'm out of my mind already.









You go with whoever you like, do whatever you like.
I can't really speak to you. I've got no rights. You had your new life, friends.
But still, i hope you are fine.

Damn. Having hard time listening to what teacher teach.
That bunch of malay girls, is way too noisy. So inconsiderate. Fuck! Lols.
Ok nevermind. I don't want them to spoil my perfect day.
Gonna rest early today. Super tired. Nights.

Ok. Some update on my first day of school. It was alright. Was so shy at first. In the end, ok le .
Got to know couple of them . But still don't know majority of them.
Well, it takes time. Today's class was fine. And the damn co op shop, system down.
So can't buy my uniform. Damn. Ok. got school tomorrow. I gotta go sleep already. If not,
i'll be late. I don't wanna be late. Nights.

Today is my first day of school. butterfly woke up and start to fly in my stomach.
omg. I'm stuck up. How to know new friends? Damn. Will update on my first day of school later on.

Damn. It's been so damn long since i last updated. Whenever i update my blog, means, i'm super moody.
How? Stomach growling like nobody business ( Not because i'm hungry) . Had diarrhea just now.
And the weather is such a bitch, i'm perspiring the whole day. And now, it's too freaking hot to sleep.
I'm waiting for my ITE posting result, and i know i can't get in. I've got so much things to rant.
Can talk to who ? Nvm.



I can't view my result. I don't know what happened. I shall wait and check and see whether tomorrow can see not. And it's been long since my blog got pictures. I've got no mood to take pictures nowadays,
Ok. There is a few photos i've taken with hubby. But i'm posting up 2.
This silly boy of mine is sleeping. I love him <3 Lols! So many things had happened.
Especially about my school stuff. I'm actually on the urge of giving up for appealing for ite.
Seee. How pathetic am i? Can't even get into fucking ITE. Well, i guess things will change one day.
Because i know what i want now. I know i'm a changed person. I'm not the last time me, who wants to play all day and doing nothing . Now, I've got my own goals and ambition, But well, it's up to the school whether they wanted to accept me or not. I can't do much things either. I'm going to sleep already.





I missed the pass. The overnights, everything. But it seems like things started to change.

Hubby's booking in tomorrow, sigh.
I felt so lost, idk what to do without him fetching me home, without him nagging me to bathe,
without him to make me eat my meals, without him to cover my blanket before i sleep.
Idk want to move back home not. He don't allow me to move back.
Cause he say he scared after i move back, i won't want move to his house again.
Sigh. I really can't afford to live without him. How???? Sigh.
Someone tell me what to do. Can??

I love you baby :D <333


When's the registration opening. Shit. BYe

He's out at yewtee, doing guard duty.
Somehow, i felt something's missing when he's not by my side,
no laughter, no nothing. So boring.
Now i realise, how important he is to me..i miss him so much ):

I'm too lazy to blog about anything. Well, me and winston patched back again. Ok, nvm.
I know our relationship is complicated. So therefore, i won't want to elaborate more. Lols.
Kai xin jiu hao. Hah.
Ok, X'mas's getting nearer and nearer.. Which means...
MY WORKING HOURS WILL BECOME LONGER! Shit man.
I hate long working hours. How? Lols.
Nvm. This month is the last month i'm working also.
I'm going to school next :x Am I? Lols.
Waiting for the registration to open also.
My brain is abit rusty already. I wonder can i study again not. I don't know my brain still working not.
Hmm... Tomorrow and thurs is my off day.
Tomorrow i will be going down to Ikea again, to buy the stuffs.
and i think the time is gonna pass very very fast.
And i miss him already. Sigh.. Will blog again. Bye.

Some times i wish for somethings, but it just simply won't come true.
I hope i can go through all this things, and starts standing tall again.
You love me? Truthfully? I hope so..

Ok. Enough of crapping. Gotta go sleeep already.

Slacked til around 1.30am at mac with hubby, ying khiam and Desmond.
Chit chat, talk cock, crapped . Lols.
Ate mac nugget meal. Got instant win for star cruise, free for the 3rd and 4th person.
So me and baby planning to go with ying khiam and des. :D
Working today is so so so super tiring.
And it's 2.42am now, i still have yet to sleep.
And i just finished editing my blogskins. Comment on the blogskin. Please. ?
Lols. Gotta go sleep now, working morning tomorrow. May go watch movie with Des and YK and baby after work.
Will update frequently. Nights.

Ok, Hubby's sleeping like one dead log, and here i am, still trying to find something for me to update.
Gosh. I really don't know what to update.
I admit, my life is boring. work, go home, work go home. That's all.
I am going back to school next year i guess. Hah. I don't know what course to take also.
and i needa do lots of things,

1. Get a proper hair treatment done.
2. Save up some money. At least hundred dollars.
3. Be home frequently ( cos i'm staying at hubby's house for like 3 weeks plus? )
4. Meet up Rebecca, Jaslin and Shueling and Josie soon.
5. Get myself enrolled in ITE.

and many more. I'm just plain lazy to update. Boring skin. Will be changing it soon.


I love you still, when you go to bed first without me :p

But worth it la. Cos i love it so so so much! Gosh. I can't stop staring at it man. :D
Lols. I'm gonna work super super super full on tues, stock take and new stocks coming.
And i want to buy things for hubby ): he say he don't need anything lei. -.-"
Money money come to me faster! Shit. I got nothing else to blog about already.

Yes. Finally shawn is 18 years old! :D
Haha! Happy birthday Shawn Soh Han Xiang!
Can officially buy cig already! Hah!
Please, be more mature abit. Lols. (:
Gonna enjoy his bbq tomorrow.
And i cut bangs already (: I hope it's not not not too ugly. Hah!
Hubby's already in bed already. Asking me to switch off the light .
And he is imitating the korean guy singing Touch my body. LOL! Silly him.
Hah! He's asking me to go sleep now. But i so long never blog already. So i hope to blog a little bit more.
And i'm going to take lots and lots of photo with Yiling and Chelsea :D
Hah! Gonna go to bed now, super sleepy already.
I'll try my best to blog more often. Lols. Nights . (:

why must i be the one planning. Why you are the one always asking me where are we going.
why? I ask you. Now, you're sleeping like dead log.
Fuck you.

I'm too lazy to update my blog. Lols.

Awaiting for hubby's book out. On friday. I hope he really really book out on that day.
2 weeks didn't get to see him. Sigh. I bet he miss me like hell :p
Haha! well, days are still the same. Wanna change job. Because this company suck! Hah!
I hate some people there too. And i wanna change to a job that is office hour. Anyone can help? ):
Office hour job!
Omg. Ashton is super cute! He looks like ang moh. Hah!
Update soon eh, bye

Caught " Haeundae : The Deadly Tsunami " with Jun Long, Jaslin and Alfan just now.
I think it's quite ok luh. Touching, :D go watch. Nice.

Gosh. Now the time is 3.27am. I have to work like.. Tomorrow? Lols.
Gotta go sleep soon. If not, can prepare take MC tomorrow :P
Byebye.

Still got nearly 1 more week then can see hubby.
Desmond wants me and hubby to faster get married. -.-" Lols.
So fast. Hahaha! Just hang the phone with him .
so tired.
Can't tahan sleeping late already. Cause too used to sleeping quite early.
And next month is going to be the month for me and hubby. :D
Our 3rd year anniversary. So fast.
3 years gone by . Haha. Hope everything goes smoothly for me and hubby.

Next month 3rd year Anniversary with hubby :D So fast.
Things are going up and down and up again.
Hope things will settle down sooon.
I really miss him now. D:
Sigh. Hubby's in tekong now. Having field camp now.
Tekong no reception. Only M1. D: Bias.
I can't get to contact him now. ):
No goodnight msges also. Send him msg also no reply.
So sianz. Hope this 2 weeks past faster. Because after he come back,
means that my payday coming soon! :D Lols!

Super shag. i'm super tired. I need alot alot of sleep. I need alot of time to rest, but i dont have the time.

Omg, i'm so gonna get this! :D





My blog is lagging of interesting things to blog about. -.-"
I'm sick, Didn't go to work for 2 days already. Tomorrow off day.
My body is aching. Head is hurting. Eyes are closing.
I slept for the whole day already. And i really need to do some workout already.
So weak. shucks. Idk what to blog about already. Gonna hit back to bed already. Byebye.

I'm awake already. And Jaslin's sleeping like a dead log. Lols! Ok, she say she see me until sian already lei. D;
I think i moving back to my house, because of her. D: She happy , i happy. LOL! Just joking.
I don't feel like going to work lei. 2 days never work already lei.
And morning got ghost keep call my name. -,-"
Called Xiao di di ghost, Lols. And his companion. PLM ghost.
Lols!
Ok, i wasted 2 minute typing this sentence, I'm going to bath already.
Love my pedicure!
Next Up, Tat. :D

omgomgomg. I'm enjoying my day to the fullest!
I'm not going to think too much. I wanna have fun everyday! Shit man.
Getting so sleepy .. Lols.
Update again. Byebye

Omgomgomg. I miss you girls already!
I wanna more tonning session and mahjong session ok?!
Better make yourself free when i'm free, ESPECIALLY REBECCA LIM.
Lols.

I'm sick already. Bye.

If you want people to put themselves in your shoe, why not trying putting yourself in other people shoes?

Finally i've got some free time to blog. Ok. Things are fine.
Super shag and tired. I need alot alot of rest.
And I'm cracking my brain real hard. Why? I also don't know why.
I just can't get myself calm down and think.
I think my brain is rusty already.


NO HOPE!

Tag reply :
xia: So sorry. Really been busy with my work and stuff. I'll find some time to meet up with you!
HONGJI : Thanks alot. I also believe i'll find my happiness one day. I just hope to live happily everyday! Haha! I'll cheer up ! No worries. :D
szeli: Thanks girl. :D I'll cheer up. I'll be alright as time pass. :D Meet up soooon! (:
Esther-: I've relink you already :D Miss you alot!




Finally feel like updating my blog. I'm too too lazy to update.
Ok, i just got back home from Jas's aunt's house. I went there to find her.
Chit chatted for the whole long night. Lols.
And we talked about the past things. And surprisingly, i still remember it!
And i'm going down for softball training later on!
So excited :D
Ok, i think i'm gonna end here first. Because i need some sleep before heading to school later.
Nights ;D

If you wanted to go back to him, go ahead. I'm not stopping you.
Because i didn't want to see you dragging yourself to hell again.
Don't you understand? Sigh. I agree, love is blind.
But you're too deaf to even hear anything.
I don't want to see you in this state, my dear.
You think i wanted to see you get yourself hurt? No!
Because i'm your best friend. But now, you're going into the same old trap that hurts you
again and again. I'm sick and tired of saying the same old things to you.
Now, i choose to keep quiet. You do the decision, It's your decision.
I've got no right to stop. All i can give is blessings.

I want an Ang moh bf! Shit man. LOL!
And i may go to bangkok with my super lovely manager :D ahahah!
still planning still. And i miss him. I really do. Sigh.
Things have been going up and down. Good or bad.
But still , life have to go on. Just hope that he'll change for the better.
Should i change job? Or not. Lols. Really shit one lor. KNS!
I felt so much better after ranting.

Ah ! i feel not right. nvm. Shit man. I'm tired. Everyday tired.
Omg. My post going to be emo again.
I don't want emo post! Things are starting to be more and more complicated.
1 super special day is coming. But.. Sigh. Nvm.


Got nothing to update about my life. nothing special happened.
I love to go for singing session.
I love partyworld and Kbox. :D
I love to sing my hearts out. My lungs nearly came out.
That's the only way i can stop myself from emoing.
Ok. I'm going to bed soon. Working tomorrow. Byebye

I see no effort being put in.
You said that you wanted to change, yes, but still , i can't feel anything.
You treat me coldly, saying that you should let go of me.
Anything. Up to you. I'm not going to bother about anything already.
Shit.